thank god it's friday!

i'd also like to take a moment to thank god for stretch denim. silence.

thank you.

tonite, while looking for a pair of jeans (that fit) i got a little depressed. i'm pretty damn big right now. not like moo-cow big but big enough not to look really cute in really cute stuff. i moved over to skirts and even those are now starting to show the hips. as previously discussed, i am taking measures to get down to normal weight again. i don't actually think i was ever at a normal weight. at least in my mind. summer of '95 i was 142 and wore a size 9. i thot i was fat. in my mind, i was fat. that's what i get for hangin' out with skinny bitches. of course, they never made me feel that way but they were all able to share clothes and i had to buy all my own stuff. *wink*

i know i didn't put all this weight on overnite and i don't expect it to come off that quickly. i can safely say that i've gained at least 30+lbs in the last year and a half. that's gotta go, plus about 30 more. i'm looking forward to it. i'm excited about getting into shape.
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back to today being friday. i'm off for the rest of the week to join HM and his partners at a trade show in indianapolis. i'm not sure whether i'm excited about that or not. it's a trade show. i think they go and look at all the stuff that vendors have to offer. i'm pretty sure this is when they pick up all of their christmas stuff. he says it's pretty boring. i figure, why not. i'll check it out and if i find it boring, i have girl weekend for future trade show outings.

but just in case, i'd like to go to the one in the spring. when indy 500 is going on. i think that would be cool! i went to a race once. nascar. it was pretty neat. i got to listen to the drivers talking to the pit and everything!

anyways... signing off for the week. have a great weekend! see ya on monday.