i'm not sure how it happened or exactly when. all i know is that it happened the nite of our "walk & talk". as i said earlier, it wasn't what was said exactly, it was just the fact that we were saying SOMETHING. sure we talked about future plans and that was exciting for handyman. but in there somewhere, i got excited too. after that nite, i had feelings come up that i'd never had before. I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND. sure, i knew i loved him before, but i never thot i was "in love" with him and i wasn't sure how that was going to pan out for future living.
i can honestly say i love him and that not only do i love him but i'm IN LOVE with him! i know he's a good guy and he is good to me. tho, i do appreciate all the kindness, i always thot it a bit overdone. now, not so much. i love him for all the little things he does.
like i said, i don't know what did it, but he's not as annoying to me anymore. and when he calls, i now run to the phone (except in the morning). i enjoy conversation with him more and i want to see him more. i DO love him.
why it took me a year to get to this point, i don't know. i'm just glad i finally made it.