wishin', and hopin', and thinkin', and prayin'

- wishin' and hopin', ani difranco

wishin' i had a magic wedding genie, hopin' i get everything right, thinkin' i'm gonna screw something up, and prayin' that i don't piss anyone off. that'll be a miracle, i'm sure.

already, i have alot of friends offering to help and they better remember who they are... cuz i will be calling. i do feel bad that we missed THE "must attend" event of the season. i had a ginourmous headache and then felt bad because mamalane had already driven out to go with me. sorry mamalane.

i'm feeling better about the planning process, tho. as i said, i have friends willing to help and others who just get giddy at the thot of a wedding. that would be meagan. i went to wally world with her last nite and she insisted we dig thru wedding magazines. she bought the martha stewart "weddings", which is cool cuz mamalane was just telling me i needed to get that one. it's got a lot of DIY stuff in there, which is cool cuz that's what we're gonna be doing. i'm really excited about doing a lot of it myself, but skeered as hell thinking about all of it.

when we got back to my place, we were so into the magazines that we completely missed CSI:Miami (our favorite). she was so into it, tho. writing down websites i needed to look at. she even made notes next to her notes. it was sweet and right on the verge of obsessive at the same time. i need somebody to obsess. i'm way too laid back and scared some of the details may get overlooked. i've decided she will be a great asset in my time of need.